Preface#
Time tells me that I should try to write a weekly report... Perhaps, without recording, nothing happens.
In fact, I have once again fallen into the dilemma of not knowing where to start and what to record. After thinking for a long time, I decided to make the theme of this week's report "Me and Summer Vacation."
Lack of Mental Willpower#
Let's talk about recent developments first. The phrase "three days of fishing and two days of drying the net" is the most vivid description. Unknowingly, the summer of '23 quietly slipped away. The temperature is no longer hot, and I unexpectedly received a message from a friend in the morning, inviting me to go out and drink the first cup of autumn milk tea. To be honest, I usually don't care about these things, but this time, it also means that autumn is here and my summer vacation is about to end.
It is worth mentioning that this summer vacation unexpectedly lasted for a long time. Despite this, I can still remember the ambition and the flag I set to thoroughly study a certain textbook right after finishing the exams. Unfortunately, my willpower is weak after all, and the excuse of lacking a study environment at home is meaningless. The most meaningful thing I did this week was to set up a blog and start updating and recording, taking the first step to "do something."
The lack of mental willpower mainly stems from the fact that I can't focus on studying during the vacation. It's not an exaggeration to say that I want to "drown" in short videos. Today, I came across someone's blog post. In fact, if I can't concentrate on studying, I shouldn't force myself. Otherwise, the result will be counterproductive. On the other hand, there are other alternatives, but there shouldn't be a sudden drop in ability level, from level 10 to level 1, for example, from acquiring knowledge to watching short videos. Any behavior that requires "binge-watching" should not be excessively used, as it will definitely affect our quality of life and attitude towards life. The survival of the fittest, the rule of "use it or lose it," has always existed. Our brains are also constantly changing, like trees growing towards the sun. Repeatedly stimulating the brain will inevitably change its development. If we keep watching short videos, our brains will become more and more dependent on short and shallow content, and become unfamiliar with and unfamiliar to long and deep content. We should be clear that we have the power to change it.
Life Continues to Move Forward#
I have always considered myself an optimistic and cheerful person, never really complaining. Although I am currently very anxious. 🙃 After all, I know that the gap between me and my classmates is getting bigger and bigger, even though we haven't been in touch, I'm sure they are also working hard for their studies. My summer vacation has been spent mostly in relaxation and play, and I haven't even gone out for a trip. I am truly a "homebody." 😂😅 Now that I think about it, from childhood to adulthood, I shouldn't be considered a diligent and studious child. I was fortunate enough to have read the survival manual for students at Shanghai Jiao Tong University. The words were sharp and made me feel somewhat ashamed. However, as a problem solver in a small town, what kind of perspective can I have? All the vacations I remember are filled with relaxation and play, rather than teachers and mentors urging me to study and keep learning.
Through self-reflection, my heart has become unusually calm. Perhaps, it's not that I can't concentrate on studying, but that I can't concentrate on boring textbooks. Perhaps, I don't really enjoy indulgence, but I resist being bound by requirements and things like professional courses and postgraduate entrance exams. Upon further reflection, I realize that I have read very few books, not even completing the four classic Chinese novels, let alone outstanding foreign literary works. I still remember that I loved reading when I was in primary and secondary school. Now, after two years of university, it seems that I have only skimmed through "No Longer Human" and "There is a Small Convenience Store by the Clouds"... I don't have the face to recall other books like "The Convenience Store for Solving Worries." I have always believed that reading can bring peace of mind. So, in the days to come, I should prioritize reading.
Me and summer vacation, perhaps the only thing worth celebrating is that I can get to know myself in leisurely days, find my goals, and continue to move forward in life. Of course, the most important thing is to take action.
Final Words#
Of course, the format and specifications of this week's report may be a bit rough, but with the first one, there will be more to come. The life during the vacation is actually boring and dull, just like writing a diary for holiday homework in elementary school. The content of each day is probably just the time and weather, followed by waking up, doing homework, playing, eating, doing homework or playing, eating, sleeping, and so on. 😂 Speaking of diaries, I suddenly imagined that after school starts, I would take out a notebook before the library closes in the evening and write a "daily account" of the day. It would probably be an interesting memory. As mentioned at the beginning of the article, perhaps, without recording, nothing happens. After all, we can't remember many trivial things with our minds, but they are worth remembering at a special moment.